trespass, your so funny! nice funny i wouldnt worry about the crying thing, when i went to my first T session, if there was one thing i was sure of, that i wasn't gonna cry, no way, but i did, have done on most since, i turn up now & the tissues are already on my side, u can only stay embarrassed for so long, but if its the only place you do cry, it does help

I understand your anger at T for thinking you need her, i was exactly the same, made me want to prove i didn't, these people are so clever at suss'in out what support you do & don't have, regardless what you say, i was too ashamed to say i didn't have anyone, i didnt need anyone, was toooo independent, they see through it, makes you feel totally transparent & vulnerable, i think that's the hardest thing

again like you i've never come out with a grin on my face, often more confused & a need to run to the car like hell

your not alone, dig deep & stay with it