We all don't like the idea of meds but sometimes we need them to function. I'm not on any, again. The last was Effexor, needed it 'cos of my root canal & 'cos I was going crazy. You have a good head on your shoulders. You're talking 'bout it. Meds can help stabilize some of the thoughts, moods, etc so you can function better. If you need it for now, then sobeit. Does NOT make you a failure.
Love,
RM