IDK... It sounds like your Ts comments have played right into what your parasite was hoping for. I had MANY, MANY, mental loops take me to a point of feeling like my T doesn't care and is just a stranger I pay to listen to me an hour every two weeks. I've also played the loop about my T realizes how vulnerable and dependent I am on her and is now finally using that power to taunt, make fun of, and have me jump through hoops.

If you can, try to express to her how these comments made you feel. My experiences with having very similar thoughts and feelings...they will continue to fester and make you doubt your T.I spent AT least 6 months of hell holding in stuff like this until I exploded and let them out. Not fun at it totally stalled my progress.