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In general, I don't mind my dissociation much. Probably because what I later learned to be depersonalization I never thought of as different at all. Now, more recent developments that involve identity and such, well, that's stressful...but I have other threads for that.
One thing that actually I find to be the most distressful, is being somewhere that you've been many times before...but then you have absolutely no idea where you are. Like, this neighborhood/city, which I've lived in several points growing up. But then, at some point I'd be walking by and not able to recognize anything like I've never been there before until someone has to point it out. Maybe that's one reason why I can never give out directions...
It's just distressful, I mean, what about when I go off into the real world with my own job and house and living out there on my own and suddenly I'm driving down the street and I don't know what my house looks like or what street to turn on and get lost? I don't think it's fly well with any boss if I get a job saying "sorry I'm late for work, I took a wrong turn and had to search forever to find the building because I forgot what this place looked like."
I don't know, maybe this has absolutely nothing to do with dissociation and my brain is just messed up, but I've heard a lot of things about dissociation and then you can't recognize something that you should be able to. But you know, it wasn't always this way, I mean heck, when my brother and I were in first grade as well as some other unspecified chunk of memories that I can't place on the time line we'd walk back and forth to school everyday (alone!) without any issues. You's think if it was a brain issue then it's be something that I was born with.
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