Thank you, karoliinareddish.

I woke up this morning and felt a little dazed due to my new medication, but I felt that I'd slept enough and was well rested, so I guess that's one good thing at least...

I'm still feeling almost as bad as I did 3 days ago, but feeling a little better. Connor was worried about me last night, he saw my screen name on msn and asked why I was so angry. I said it didn't matter but he pushed on it and I ended up ranting to him. He was worried because I said I didn't trust myself at home, whether C was there or not. I just didn't trust myself. In the end I just kept pinching myself to stop myself from doing something much worse.

Connor's coming over today to make sure that I' okay and spend a bit of time with me, cheer me up or something. Just anything to make me feel better. I'm afraid that I'll get stressed out at him and snap or something. I don't know. I'm just a bit scared about being around people when I'm such a mess as this