And I thought my drug cocktail was getting complicated. Sounds like you're doing all you can. Just stay in touch with your docs and exercise even if it's just walking (I should do more of that myself). I think people who don't understand the disease (by way I mean being prisoner to the chemicals in one's capricious brain) tend to believe it's an excuse to behave all over the map, but really, most of us hate feeling out of control and would like to lead a somewhat normal productive life. Most of us really are doing all we can and we don't want to hurt anyone. Sure the upswings may be great for accomplishing all we couldn't when depressed, but once it goes overboard, so does productivity and causes severing of relationships. So, we compromise. We take our meds, we go to therapy, but really it never completely goes away, it just becomes more manageable. Hang in there.