I am so sorry to do this but I laughed so much after reading your last sentence, because, I have done the same thing before with a job I worked at for 2 hours and walked out on!

On Thursday night I ended up getting wasted on beer and champagne and had to call in to work Friday morning. I'm on notice for doing things like that. I have been at this job for 1. 5 years and still have managed to keep it. I'll find out on Monday if I still am employed. If I am not, I am sure I will do something drastic and get suicidal again. My meds do not seem to be helping me with my alcohol abuse. Ugh. I hate myself for being this way but I have come to accept myself as I am. If anything, I will commit myself to a mental health hospital before I attempt suicide again. Besides, suicide is suicide--it is never an attempt. Attempts are simply cries for help. I too have had so many jobs I can't even count them anymore. Currently I work as a social worker. Can you believe that? I help people who are f***ed up yet I'm more f***ed up than they are!