Your welcome Coconut!!!
Hope you are doing well. Miss seeing you around

Wow Cmac,
Thats great that your therapist knew how important it was to work through and clarify things for you. It was also good that you had the courage to bring it up to her. I know thats really hard to do. I am glad that it worked out so well for you.

Chaotic,
I agree, I am glad that I did not run this time either. I was really ready to drop everything and not return anymore. You know sort of more to protect myself. Don't get close, don't get hurt.
But I am learning that in doing that I am actually hurting myself by not allowing myself that closeness to others.
Ah sometimes this can be so complicated. I wish I could really just trust a lot more than I do.