they are not pointless - somtimes they can even help you not to cut - just getting the emotions out there - I am so sorry youa re in such a bad place - its hard to think that things will get better whne it seems so dark - but they can and do - Im sure your wife and us will be here to support you -
you can do this - you can stop when the time is right for you - I hope that time is now - I hope you wont hurt yourself again
please be kind to yourself ok
p7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet