Ok. As you most know, I officially resigned from my position on Tuesday. I didnt come to this decision easily as I had been at this job for a long time. I had made great friends there. I just knew in my heart and mind that leaving was the best thing I could do. I handed in my notice on Tuesday. I had a T appointment and was telling her about the decision I had made and I started getting a little panicky. My throat was getting tight and I was having a hard time breathing. I didnt tell my T at first but then I have this thing that I do when I have a panic attack where I put my hand on my chest so I can monitor my heart beat and I had no choice after that but to tell her I was having a panic attack. Anyway, she talked me through it with breathing and assured me that I was safe. I guess this anxious feeling followed me the whole night because I was unable to sleep well that night. Needless to say, I didnt go to work the next day and emailed the Human Resources Director and told her that I would NOT be returning to work again. She emailed me back and wanted to thank me for the nice resignation letter I had written and told me that they would waive the two week notice and not hold it against me because of the difficult time I was having and that she wished me well in all my future endevours.

I know that I made the right decision but I still have this little pit of uneasyness in my stomach for some reason or another. I know that in time it will be easier to deal with but right now, it's still on my mind quite a bit.

My house is still on the market. We are having an Open House tomorrow and Sunday so I have been cleaning my *** off all damn day. I mean, I have cleaned in places where no women should ever go. YUCK!!! I cleaned the potties, the showers, the tubs, rearranged the living room furniture, cleaned the kitched. Countless other things. I have the bedrooms, mopping and vacuuming left to do. I'm so worn out. I went to the store and bought some flowers and will put them around the house tomorrow so it gives the house a nice feel when ppl are looking around. I am excited about this but at the same time, scared. I know that the decision to move is the right one but I am leaving a place where I have lived for a long time. My comfort zone. I know that I have my hubby and children beside me so I know that I will be ok and so will they. I also have a great support system here so I will never be alone. Thanks for letting me vent.

There you have it. The latest info on JEN!!!!!