Hi John!!!

Self hatred is something I have posted about before and know the feeling all too well. My take on self hatred is the fact that I dont really know myself at all. I have been so consumed with others and their needs that I havent stopped to get to know me. The real me.

I guess you can say I am at a point in my life where I am starting to discover myself. Taking more time for me and my family. I needed to do this because I dont want to go around hating myself for the rest of my life. Its like started a long term relationship. Very hard, very fragile but well, well worth it. I work with my T and PDoc very closely on this goal so I beleive I am on the right track.
Have you though about therapy? Journaling? I do both. It helps so much. I try to write things down that I enjoy or things that have made me happy and I go from there. maybe you could try the same.

I know how your feeling and its horrible and very lonely. Please know that your not alone and that you can turn your view of yourself around. Please keep posting as often as needed. Much love.