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I dont know, I seem to have all the symptoms of borderline personality, then i also seem to have the symptoms for prodomal stage of psychosis, the beginning of it. But I cant seem to think that I actually have either, that im just focusing on all of this to much and maybe exagerating symptoms in my mind, or that i have a need to label myself as either of these to explain things in the past. I just can't accept that I actually have borderline and im falling into psychosis, despite all the evidence. I also feel like if i do have it that ive somehow created it on purpose sub contiously. Maybe im being ridiculous either way, let me know what you guys think.

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i can relate to this. I know that i didn't exactly create my "psychosis" because it started when i was so young without me even thinking about it, but now that i'm older, i know i've deffinatly been feeding it, making it "worse" But it's my escape and i prefer it to living in "reality"

Before i was diagnosed with schiz, i was givin many other diagnoses's, because i didn't understand myself or what was going on so i never was able to explain things well enough or give the doctors enough info to be able to correctly diagnose me. Even after doing research and deciding that i probably am schizophrenic, and then after being diagnosed with schiz, i still had my doubts for a while. It's all really confusing. I had to do a ton of research on Schizophrenia and similar conditions for it to all make sense to me. Now it finally does and i am 100% sure that i am schiz. (however, i have my own deffinition for what schizophrenia really is)

there are lots of similarities between schizophrenia and borderline personality disorder, and other things like psychotic depression, bipolar disorder, schizoid personality disorder, schizotypal personality disorder, etc. It's really confusing and complicated, i know.

Im not a doctor or anything, but i've done a great deal of research. If you want, you can describe your symptoms for me and maybe i could help.

-Becka