Hi everyone,
I'm new here, though not to this website. I joined to learn more about self-injury. See, this is my problem:

I've been cutting myself for a little over a month. It started out with a couple of scratches with a pair of scissors. Then I found a razor, took one of the blades out, and have been using it ever since. Since this time, I've started counseling. We've tried to find things I could do instead of cutting, but it seems like I find a reason why each activity wouldn't work. Another thought I've been having, and it is something that I worry about, is that it seems like I don't even care if I get better. It's almost like I enjoy this whole process, for whatever messed-up reason. Shouldn't I want to get better? I think it's because I know that I'll miss talking to someone when I end counseling.

This all sounds confusing to me. Does this make sense? Has anyone gone through something like this before?