Thanks for the warm welcome. Yes he does know he is paranoid. His let's call them episodes are coming closer and closer together, about every 2 weeks I can expect a big blowup. Or at the least much drama. The other night during one of his more mellow accusing sessions he said, "I think there is a man underneath our bed and that he rides in the trunk of the car when you come to pick me up from work" I said do you know how irrational that is? That no one would be willing to go through all that? Then he said "it sounds really crazy when I say it outloud" So I told him maybe he needed to start saying these things outloud. I have tried to talk to him about trust and he says that in his head these thoughts just flood his mind and that's all he can concentrate on. It is very hard to remain calm but I know it is the best way to work through it withhim. But alot of times I just cannot take it anymore and I begin to shout b/c I have said the same thing over and over for years. That I would never cheat, that's not in my character, that's not who I am. I am sadly begining to realize that this will be with us forever. I'm optimistic since he atleast acknowledges that he is sick and is willing to go to therapy and get some medications. Although in the past when on meds he has decided he didn't need them anymore. I would love to talk with others in this situation if it be someone here or if anyone knows of a forum with others in this situation. I really appreciate your time and experiences.

Thank you ,
AUTUMN