Make sure you read in the other forums you mentioned dx's for... PTSD and Dissociation... perhaps you will find some of your answers there?

I was wondering how convenient are your tools for cutting and burning? Do you keep them handy, or when you find them, throw them away? This is a coping mechanism... and while you need to work to find a better way to cope, please make sure you stay safe when you do this.

Now that your T is helping you realize things you may not have understood about yourself, you can hope to work through this in the future... (((hugs)))