You have made some huge breakthroughs lately, Deli....congrats.
I think it's normal to feel naked after making such revelations about yourself. Backsliding a bit might be a normal reaction to that. But try to let the feeling stick around, and maybe you will start feeling a more permanent change in yourself.
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