why am i obsessed with the past? is anyone else the same way? i just think about it a lot... talk about it a lot. i didn't think it was a big deal... until one of my best friends told me it was hard for him to be supporting of me sometimes, because i dwell so much on the past. now i finally think it might not be normal to dwell so much on the past... but what else am i to do? is there a reason i would be this way?

another thing...

i've started feeling off lately... there's this intensity... i can feel it... i feel overwhelmed at times... but i dont know why!!!! i can't tell what these feelings are relating to!!! i can't tell what its about!

i feel things... i feel intensity... longing... sadness... frustration... but there's this wall around it. i can't FOR THE LIFE OF ME tell what these feelings have to do with, or are about.

i just dont get it.