It feels like the world is literally crashing down around me. Over the last few months my life has been smashed into a million different pieces.

My Dad is remarrying.
My living situation is terrible and unbearable.
My university career is failing.
My boyfriend asked if we can go on a break so he can sleep with someone else to be "even."
Both my parents hate him and think he is an "emotional abuser"
And I hate myself more than ever.

I'm going to see a doc tomorrow but I'm soo soo scared.

I don't want to be with people but I can't stand being along with my thoughts and feelings. I feel constantly sick. And my heart is broken. I have to decide after our two week break whether I still want him back. That's if he wants me back. I don't understand why he would leave me at this point just when I need him the most.

I hate having to pretend that i'm fine and just do normal things like eat, dress, shower and walk to uni. It's all SO hard. I don't know what to do.

I feel really alone. I can't breathe. I feel like i'm drowning. Tomorrow seems so far away.