I know, it's discouraging since I thought I was actually much further. On the other hand, I am kind of bouncing around all the stages I think. For a long time I felt pretty good but I've had a few recent reminders of him so maybe its just a brief episode. I hope so. But right now I'm so mad!

What an a.h. he is though....!!!

Re:"Danger Will Robinson, Danger." ----> lol! I don't think there's any danger mostly because I'm sure he's long gone as far as his interest in me. And I can't see getting back into that even should he approach me. He's pretty much stabbed me in the heart.

And I should clarify that I don't want him to see me and see how fantastic I now look so we can go back to the affair but because I would feel better if he pined over what he can no longer have--a kind of revenge. In my fantasy, he is smitten by my great beauty and emerging abs, begging me to take him back as I toss my mane of luscious, bouncy hair, smirk (with a hint of pity in my eyes...), snort, and walk away. Sounds pretty good, hey?