Hi. I believe I may have posted something very similar to this a few years ago. It's disheartening to know bp is like a giant hammer, waiting to drop to smash things to pieces just as life starts to go well.

I have good news and bad news. First, the bad news I'm a fair bit older than you and still on the same merry-go-round; it's sickening. It took many years for me to identify why this happened, but even after I finally was diagnosed, it continued to happen and that's very painful.

Now, the good news. I keep bugging my doctor to change up medications until we find a med that will work long-term and now I'm almost at the point where the ups and downs are smoothed out. It's not perfect, I still get overwhelmed from stress occasionally. But it's enough control to hold down my job and fortunately, my employer has a generous attendance policy. I've even managed to get promoted.

What I'm saying is there's still time for you to get to the point where you can manage and you have many years ahead of you to fulfill your aspirations. Depression makes it very hard to see it but you have plenty of life left in you yet, don't give up.

Finally, don't forget to give your self a pat on the back for doing the best that you can. In the end, that's all anyone can really expect, and if you keep doing that, you will succeed.

Take care,

Kerry