Here I am sending you support!

As to your sexuality, don't worry if you are confused. That's perfectly fine. Jjust be true to yourself and eventually you will sort it out. I had a long time figuring out myself. I felt for other woman since I was in grade school. (I am also a woman). Then in high school and after I tried so hard to be straight. Then I came out as bisexual, and finally as lesbian. I have been with only women now for many years. So yes it's confusing, and hard, and people might not like your decision, but oh well. It's your life not theirs. If you want to chat more, feel free to pm me.