Well today is Sunday, and I feel disconnected, I have been feeling like this for a while, I don't really hang with people, or go out, I just recently moved back with my parents for the first time since I was 19, and this was by force, i grew up in a dysfunctional home, father alcoholic, and my mom always full of rage, so being abused was something i began to get very use to, I've been through counseling for this, and i healed but it seems when i had to move back the fear started back up, my mom has changed but my father , well he's still full of hate, being around him isnt something that really bothers me when my meds are just right, but like now im on celexa 40mg, and it doesnt affect me the way my usual meds do, Lexapro, and i just got off of it two months now because i felt it was causing me to gain the weight i have gotten from no where, welllll i dont want it anymore, id like my lexapr back, I know im saying alot in such a small time but bare with me lol, but lexapr is expensive, ive managed to get it with my doctors office under a program, but i suggested to change to celexa and now im stuck with it untill my doctor agrees to see me again, I havnt been seeing the THERAPIST so when i did finally get to see here for the first time in years she told me with out seeing here the med doc wont let me make an appointment, thing is i didnt know this , i would have seen her.... Well I know i have given a lot of info in such a small time, but i wanted to say it all, in one letter so any input would be great.......