(((((Elspeth))))
I am still here and listening. I am sorry you are still having a rough time. Sometimes things are just so much there are no real words to say other than I care. I am sorry you do not feel very supported by your dad. It is hard when others do not understand how you feel and it seems they can say something that really stings.
I am glad you are still posting, still reaching out. I wish I could take your pain and carry it for you for awhile. Know that I am walking with you and that you are not alone. I know it is only on the computor, but I am still here and listening.
Hang in there and remember to breath. Can you do something kind for you? Know that you are supported and cared for.
dps