I have been feeling kind of sick since I took that test and posted this....For some reason the memories have just flooded my mind all at once and that is scary for me....I have spent my life (since I was 8)...trying to be "normal".

They are all dead now so I will never get any answers......

When you are a kid and lonely, sad, a misfit who's father killed himself..I think the predators of this world can just "sense" that. I haven't found the adult word to be much kinder......only not as overt.