d.q.

"somebody needs to see us. we are the overlooked ones - at least in our system we are. we don't really raise hell, that was mostly a bluff. BUT WE'D LIKE TO GET SOME ATTENTION. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!"

This is us but in T we got the whole session last time, just about, and the t let us be creative and we did some of our dancing (barely) that we used to cope with. We did contemporary dance.

"we hate being stuck in her older body. it's gross and it doesn't feel like my body. who stole my life?????????????? I feel ripped off and angry and like my life is gonna be over before i can live it if some things don't change."

i don't know who i'm gona be when i grow up. if something doesn't change i'll be too old to do what i want to do when i grow up. i'll be some old geezer. i haven't gotten to be YOUNG yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

All of this, YES, we feel the same as this. We are telling all this in t lately, to try and get the point across to her to get up and do some activity to get her/our shape back. We are disgusted but we tried to tell her, we'll help her get her size down but she has to get up and move. We are trying to fulfill our dreams but it takes soooooo long. We are supposed to take two more courses this month. Just makes us mad that we are having to live our teens out in this body. We are finding our 'direction' but we look at the older ones elsewhere and see they have met theirs and are retiring and we are only launching . We will be like Grandma Moses, which will be okay in a way 'cause we love art!!!!

"i don't mean to just be ugly to leslie. she didn't do this to me on purpose. stress from all this tore her up and she used food to comfort herself a lot and now she needs two new knees OMG argh!!!!!"

We are trying to be kind to her but she is pretty old and we just don't get her stuckness. So she did a bit more for us this week and she keeps asking why she can't just be a grandma like other grandmas? *sigh* So, we are trying to understand her and forgive her for her mistakes but we aren't ready to be comforted by her yet. bleah!

"i feel like screaming so loud the windows will shatter."

Wait for us we'd like to hear a few s h a t t e r ourselves. We'll be listening for it. Maybe it comes from our having to stay in the house looking out windows and not being able to get away from all of them. I'd say lets get out of this place. Go for a drive in the country and play the music really loud with all the windows down so the wind blows our hair all around.

"i'm not stupid, crummy or evil. i just wana have something good to live for, not just hiding and staying safe at all costs. where's the fun in that????????????????????"

tell me we aren't the only ones who feel like this, are we??"


NOPE! We feel just the same at times but have really appreciated that in t the last few times we've been able to 'scream' sort of. We especially appreciated T being creative to let us dance (sort of, because she couldn't move her legs too much). By end of session we were moving our upper body with old dance moves. It was way cool!!!!!

we luv your name b/c at our house 'dq' stands for Dairy Queen too. we hope you can get outside or maybe that's not cool for you but something that makes you happy today, dq.

Wish, Sweet 16
and the others