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Jun 30, 2009, 11:41 AM
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Member Since: Jun 2009
Posts: 6
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Thank you Shangrala for all of your honesty with my situation. I am not staying with her because she wants an open relationship, its only because I do love her very much and I know she loves me too, this has been hard on me and for me to "deal" with this over the phone all the time and I just want her to understand the hurt she has caused my heart. She says she isn't doing anything other than going out only once a month (minus trips to pool bars/peoples houses/concerts at clubs etc) because she agreed to not go to the "gay" clubs or strip clubs only once a month and she hasn't but I guess its all the other "stuff" she is doing that bothers me. I have never felt so angry and betrayed as I do right now in my life. I know she must care because I keep trying to break up and she talks me out of it all the time because she says we should "try" it and if it doesn't work I guess we will go our separate ways. I agree with you about the way she so freely does whatever, she said she shouldn't have to stop having "fun"...I don't know I am just waiting for the days to pass by and I am back home to deal with this situation...I really don't know what to do, but I know that I have been tempted more than one time to "cheat" and never did, because I wanted to be a "good and honest" girlfriend to her unlike any of her other ones...I bring no drama and I am a very stable person for the most part minus my "anger" issues from time to time...I will just say it feels good to talk to so many people with different perspectives and I so appreciate it. thank you everyone.... 
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