Inky,

I know some of the things you have been going through since I joined PC last October, & life hasn't been kind or kind to you & neigher has the father of your children. In reading these posts, it sounds like it is your husband that is trying to keep your children away from you & that they aren't the ones that want to stay away from you. I think that is an important point for you to focus on. I like _Sky's suggestion to talk to your children & have them keep you informed about what is going on it their lives & leave their father out of that conversation.

The one thing I saw in human nature, starting from when I was young, is that when there was something I wanted very bad & there was a situation surrounding it where I got extremely angry, I would end up cheating myself out of it because I was too upset. The only problem with that was that I ended up denying myself the thing(s) that I really wanted.

It is important to remember to spend as much quality time with your children as possible given the situation, so please don't deny them the time they have with you just because you are upset.

Please don't hurt yourself or your children while being upset,

Debbie