I took my baby to the zoo today with some friends from work. It was fun. The depression was still there,but at least I got out of my house and got some sun. I ended up getting sunburn, but oh well.

It's weird being depressed without all the agitated, frenetic energy to go with it. Lithium must be doing something... But the energy is what has always helped me to function while being so down. I am worried that I will screw up my job, the bills, my housekeeping, etc. I know my family needs my income and my help caring for baby and the home. The pressure I feel is so intense.

All I really want to do is go in a closet and hide. Forever.