Hi, HR~

You stated:
He told me yesterday he was afraid that if we didn't work things out I was going to start seeing a bunch of different people, not that it would be any of his business, but he didn't want to see me to that, what does that mean, why even say anything like that. That I don't understand, but I haven't called him today, nor text, and I hope I can keep it that way.

In response to that in bold:
It's only obvious that he still loves you. And just from all the other posts of yours so far I can honestly say that I seriously doubt that this is just a manipulative tactic on his part to "keep you handy" in case his intentions don't pan out for him. He hasn't any alterior motives here, other than seeking his own answers for himself.

From all that you've offered, (including that in your pm....which, btw, I do intend to address soon...lol), he is attempting to "follow the beat of his own drum", if you will, and that alone seems to be a completely new rhythm for him. And, as of yet, he is uncertain exactly what that beat really is. I can also say with almost absoluteness that, this is more than likely confusing him as much as it is you.
Because of the fact that he is not manipulative, or sneaky, (his actions have proven honorable in every sense of the word), his statement to you (in bold) only tells that it scares him that his actions may result in losing you. He knows he has a good thing with you. Also knows that by persuing to seek to fill this void of his own, he is taking a high risk in losing the one he loves. A very high price to pay. I can only imagine the confusion he must be experiencing.

I also have to say.....BRAVO for your sticking to your guns and resisting contact. Reward yourself a lil something for such a success, as you definately deserve that.
I strongly believe that for each step you allow him away, it will be that step closer back to you.
Become his "safe place" TO return to.
Offer him the awareness that, once he does discover what he seeks, that it is exactly where he first began his journey.

I cannot agree with jerrymichele more: When you do speak with him, talk about how HE is doing. Do your absolute best to NOT talk about yourself or the relationship, or anything relating to either. Gawd...I know how hard that will be, but try to remind yourself that every time you talk about either yourself or anything pertaining to yourself, (relationship), you are quite possibly shoving him that much further and faster away from you.
When you talk with him....talk about HIM. Express true concern AND interest about HIS day. How HE is feeling. And allow him the opportunity to reply without reacting.
Then, when you need to scream, rant, question or cry.....Return to us. We are here to help you through this.

I know how hard this is for you TO provide him the space.
Just like holding onto an adorable lil puppy....The tighter you hang on, the more that lil bundle will struggle to free itself.
Hold on gently, but don't let go. Offer the space to move freely, but with both arms in dedicated support.

I hope this offers some support to you for now, anyway. I'll be responding to pm soon.

You're in thots n heart....

Shangrala