This is a bit of a rant, okay it is a full blown rant

I"m feeling so angry right now, at people who cant' understand, I'm self harming in a number of ways, not all of it is in cutting, it's acting out, doing things that emotional leave me in ruins.

I got to thinking about a conversation I had one time with someone, I confided in them I had self harmed the night before and was feeling bad about it they told me it was all a cry for attention, why else would I do it?

WHAT THE ****??????????????????/

That hurt me so much, all my ways of hurting myself has always been for the benefit of my own demise, I never have harmed myself or done anything to beg for attention, I hate people have that view on people who self harm, it's all for attetion NO IT'S ****ING NOT.

It's because I want to hurt myself, because I hate me, because I can't stand doing something good for me so I have to hurt myself in someway.

Makes me so angry, when people can't understand, refuse to understand, or think they know the answers to my issues.

Right now I want to hurt myself, I don't care how, emotionally or physically, I just want to self destruct...I guess that means I"m begging for attention doesn't it?