soooo you realise this is not a good way to be - you are carrying on what your adoptive parents did to you - they were wrong you know...

aand as for the scars not being seen - if you lose enough weight no matter what you wear people will see -

pushing your body to perform is ok if you give it the fuel it needs to survive and perform.....

if you were reading these posts and they were from me - what would you say to me....

can you post a reply as if I were you and you were replying to me.... even if you dont post it - can you try to write it out and see what it would look like....... you can even PM it to me if you want to - or just write and delete ......

I see you and I like you -

we are all like snowflakes - all differnt and beautiful in our own way - perfect in our imperfections - how sad it would be if we were all the same .. better that we are all the colours of the rainbow and all the sizes and shapes of of every amazing thing in the universe.