i asked her
why she was so upset/angry today.
and she just said "well sometimes i just feel like crap, okay?"
...
am i a horrible person?
for wanting to scream that i KNOW what its like to feel like crap,
i know what its like to have those sleepless nights,
and i know what its like to be so stressed i want to yell and cry and hide,
and that i have to keep going?

im sorry
im sorry if im a horrible human being
but i need my parents right now,
and i cant look after them,
i cant play the parent
i just need someone to take care of me.
i cant try to make her feel better all the time.
i cant do it,
i cant get through these days by myself.