I all own it to you because of all this help and surportment past these 3 weeks. I'm a whole different person, but still the same me. It's like I've finally came out of my small shell that doesn't fit. Not going to be the shy girl anymore more like Ayesha thats me! All so got a new hair cut be a surprise for everyone. I feel so happy, I could cry again for o reason. Got conselling first thing at school but I can't wait to say that I'm feeling much better now though it can't fix my problems which is why I'm having therpy in only 3 days time. Still taking my teddy bear to school. Shhh don't tell anyone I keep him in my school bad because he makes me feel safer. Deep breath I did have a phonbia of returning to school but now I seem to want to go back just to see my mates and get an good education. Going to start a fresh new diary so I keep writting stuff which I can work out in my mind. Though I won't write in every day only the days which need to be writting in. I feel so grown up here. There's only one word I've got to say....Bravo!