went to a family graduation party for a niece yesterday....one of my sister in laws saw my bandage on my inner arm and said really LOUD what did you do there on your arm and everyone looked my way....I lied and told her oh nothing I stratched it on some bushes we were trimming around the house...my daughter who was sitting with me knew I was lieing because she knows I cut....but she said nothing too...but my sister said let me look at it and by now my other sister in law who is a doctor came over and said yeah lets see maybe I can give you a prescribtion for something to put on it.....and I said NO it is ok and walk away.....awkward....wanted to die...I know they only meant well and wanted to help....but they do not know I am a cutter....so BAD......ugh my anxiety went out of the roof.....I was so quiet on the way home and I could not to my hubby any.....so I came here today while they are all at church this morning.....ugh just hate myself more now....for the shame...the lieing....the guilt....ugh.....
thanks for letting me rant and rave here this morning and unload....I do not have anyone to talk to right now....but you guys.....love you all