ugh, eye contact. i had a my old-T (the ***) ask me to make eye contact with him more often. it wasn't a demand, but like you can say 'no' to that.

it was the most uncomfortable moment for me in therapy, ever. i seriously hunched up into a tiny ball on my chair and stared at the ground and broke out into a sweat. after what seemed like a decade of silence, he finally goes "you don't have to if you don't want to", and that seemed to make it better. but i seriously hated him for even asking for it to begin with.

of course, all the sessions that followed - he would stare at me so that whenever i did manage to look up to him we made eye contact (usually i wait until the therapist has looked away and i kind of 'steal' these little glances so i can monitor them, but with old-T whenever i tried to steal one he would be staring right back at me so we always made eye contact and it sucked).

eye contact is really triggering for me too, i guess (no *****, deli!! ).