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Old Jul 01, 2009, 05:46 PM
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UPDATE:

After he text me Saturday night. There is a website that I joined to meet other people to do same interests activities (jazz, dance, festivals, etc) Well turns out he joined the same website, I didn't know that until I went to the event. Well there was an Movie event planned for Sunday with the Leader of the group. I RSVP'd for myself and another girlfriend of mine. So we planned to do lunch and catch the movie at 2p. Well around about 1p he decides to call me. He leaves a message saying this is not right...you could at least pick up the phone. Well i am still doing good and i don't answer. So he starts continously calling. So I finally decide to text him and say that I am at the movies, I will call you another time. He sends a text saying Call me now, I am here at the movies and there is no 1pm showing. Well the leader emailed me and changed the time, but she did not update the website. So he didn't RSVP but showed up anyways. So I couldn't believe that he was there. So I text him and told him I was out with a friend, lets talk later please. He called twice and I decided to just turn my phone off. So we never met up at the movies, but I ended up calling him later that evening. Well we have a long talk about me getting sick and starts telling me how he feels embarassed and scared that I accused him. I tell him how insensitve he is and that it was immature of him to not call back and goes into apologizing. He told me he did research and wants to know what my doctor said. So I go into telling him what my GYN said and I tell him that I am going for STD testing and Oral STI testing and I think that he should. So he agreed to do that. All in all I ended the conversation with telling him that I am so tired of being disappointed by him. I asked if he had issues talking to me about things and why does he clam up about serious issues. He said he doesn't have difficulties, but he has alot of things going on. So he went into telling me all about it, but I told him that I had things going on as well. So I told him that I think its best i step all the way out of the picture. I agreed to be his friend and that he could call me anytime, no sex, no kissing, no seeing each other. He has been calling me everyday since and we did end up meeting at a park yesterday to walk and talk. Today I feel like an azz, because I know what I should be doing about this situation, but I just keep accepting him back. Also, I have met two other guys, so I am starting to date others, but its not really what I want to do, but I am trying to keep my options open so I don't hurt, but I know I probably need to give myself I break from men and clear my head all together, to be ready for someone that will respect me. I am sorry PC Family, I went against what I should be doing. I usually don't have a problem letting men go that aren't good for me. I just need to know when to let go of him.

Thanks for the love PC Family. I appreciate all of your advice. However, I have done the opposite as you read above. I feel so stupid, but it seems so hard to let go of him. I know how this relationship is not healthy for me, but its like I still have hope because I care about him. I can't believe I am even saying it. I wish it was just as easy as one two three to block him. I have never been in this situation before. I have no problems meeting men, but there is something about him that I can't shake.
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