My God that must have hurt to have him tell you to stop contacting him. I was bracing for just that same thing as I sent off a few last emails (one to tell him what a ***** he was for not telling me he was 'in a relationship' and a second more gracious one to regain my dignity before I stopped contacting him. I actually blocked his email just in case he would send a reply that would hurt so he might even have done so, but I don't even want to know.

So I suppose the lesson here is to trust your intuition--always believe the behavior rather than the words. I wish I had done so and just cut him loose all those months ago..that stupid a**h***.

I guess I haven't reached the forgiveness stage, huh?!

Here's something to read that I found helpful and actually had to laugh out loud afterward.

http://breakupsurvivor.com/BreakupSu...?gender=Female

So sorry for your pain...I surely know how it feels.