sometimes I think, wouldn't it be great if I didn't have this? I went to my tdoc today and told her I was having "vertigo" and once in a while dodging things that weren't there in a startled fashion. She became alarmed and told me I needed to call my pdoc asap and wouldn't discuss it more than saying it probably a symptom of bipolar, specifically visual hallucinations.
I find this "pill" of bipolar hard to swallow. I'm watching a documentary on bipolar right now and its really raw/insightful. consequently, it's also making me really depressed.
It's also not helpful that half of my support group I cant access right now.
Is it normal to think about dying even when you don't want to kill yourself?
I left a message wit my pdoc. We'll see.
Only one day of work left before holiday. I think I can, I think I can.
Thanks for listening.