((( orange ))))

those who are left to greive sometimes get looked over in the grand scheme of things.
I know I did and have had to get used too or block things out because my family is/was so big not to mention I married into a bigger family. So have just gotten used to death ( its a horrid thing to have to get used to but that is just what happens)
we tend to loose a member about 2-3 years apart so we just sort of get over 1 then have to meet again for the same thing ....
It makes family get together not as pleasant as it should be we have just gotten over the last one MIL ( not really gotten over but you know what I mean)

And my name keeps getting nearer to the top every day

So I can feel for you very much and give you BIG hugz