Thanks Peppermint_Patty,

You are right. I try my best to stay positive and high sprited and I think I'm doing okay. But still somedays like yesterday got into me badly. I texted him and he was out of town! Probably, that was a sign to not see him....also, I can't make for tonight's class, because my mom is here....that gives us a little bit more distance....I read his facebook and he's going out dancing with all these girls on Thursday night and Sunday night.....It's so difficult for me to live like that with him....that was my main reason to break up and even furture than that I didn't want to date him in a first place, because I was seeing him hanging out with so many girls....but he's not dating any of them....
I don't know sometimes, I'm so confused thinking that probably I should have let him go....but then I think he left by himself too....He could have stay with me!!!!
It's just so hard to find somebody else....I wanted to try online dating, but I did it before and didn't work....probably, I got to give it another chance....
It's really bothering me all these loneliness....I'm trying my best to not think about my loneliness but it gets into me more and more....
thanks again for your advice
MT