It's hard not to sound trite when someone is in so much pain and you want to comfort them. Anyone who has experienced the severe depression you are going through can relate, but it feels so lonely and isolating and exactly as you are describing it while you are in the middle of it, it's hard to believe anyone else could understand. It feels like you are being selfish, spoiled, childish, etc. But the enemy is chemicals in your brain. Not you.

Yes, the people around us who love us really want us to feel better and at times can seem to be losing their patience. They might even say unhelpful things like "snap out of it" or "you have so much to be thankful for." That only makes us feel worse because we know all the good in our life but still can't dispel the heaviness/emptiness/clawing despair.

If you have a therapist or a psychiatric doctor, schedule an appointment as soon as possible. You don't have to battle this alone. The enemy is not you. And when you're experiencing this much suffering, it's really hard to read the emotions of the people around you, even those close to you.

When I was in a severe depression during the winter I thought people were angry with me or disappointed in me, but it turned out they were just concerned for me and wanted me to get help and feel better. I got all paranoid too. I didn't want to see or talk to my friends, started pushing them away and felt like maybe they wouldn't want to be friends with me if they saw me in this state. People who've known you in the good times will understand in the bad times that this is not the real you. They just want you to feel better.

You need to take care of yourself. That may mean going to your doctor for a prescription or to the hospital temporarily. Depending on how disturbing your mood and thoughts are, take the appropriate positive action. If you're afraid, ask someone you trust that you feel is not judgmental to make the phone call(s) for you. You are loved and this is treatable.