Dear Phoenix,

You do not have to go digging for past trauma, as you are more ready the memories will start to trickle back into place - some of them anyway. The drug and alcohol use may have interfered with your memory also.

You have plenty to process and deal with first and then the rest will come along afterward. Eventually, as healing comes you will recover some good memories and good feelings.

It took me a long time to even begin to get past the trauma, but I stuck it out and it is always worth it - getting well I mean is worth it.

Also, you DO NOT have to DIG UP all the old bad stuff to get over it. Sometimes we healed without getting all "nitty gritty" on it. We mistakenly thought we all had to remember all the bad stuff and that was not true for us. Thankfully!!!

Hang in there and be gentle with yourself and take some time and take good care of yourself - (or learn how if you need to learn first)

Leslie and Pixies