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Jul 02, 2009, 12:44 PM
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Member Since: Jun 2009
Location: Maryland
Posts: 91
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I don't think I can do it!! A dear friend of mine says I "CAN" get through this. I know he knows how hard it can be because he suffers from depression as well. I have been ok for years, and all of a sudden starting going down. I don't know if it was one thing that triggered it or not. Next thing you know, I don't want to get out of bed, not going to the gym like I use to. I started taking pills all the time and even done self injury. My friend did go with me to a psycharist. That was hard enough alone doing that. He gave me some new meds which I have been taking since tues. He told me to take them in the morning so I have been. They make me so tired by 8 pM. I feel great for a while, and then at night and hit a low again. I have an appt with a T to talk to someone, but I dno't know if I can do it. I don't feel like I am worth it. I feel like I just want to run away and hide from everyone that way no one has to worry and whatever. This guy who is been there to help me. I feel bad. I turn to him all the time and I can't do that. I feel like a burden and that I"m being needy. SHouldn't I be able to do this on my own? Maybe I'm not meant to be helped? My sister and her girls are coming up today and it is taking everything that I have to put on a happy face and act like nothing is wrong when all I want to do is sit and cry and do nothing. I feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel.
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