my expectation? I don't know, when I was still seeing my therapist she stressed the need to open up to those around me, but after so long Idon't know how. And after the reaction Iget from my friends I am not sure I can. I do need to talk this out finally. It has been bottled up and not dealt with for so long. But after I told my friends they were so, taken back i guess is the phrase. they supported me, but don't see why I still need to talk about it. I bring it up they change the subject. Or try to make light of it. I am really proud of how far I have come, but I need to go further and I don't know where that is. I have gone form a self hating self abusive person with no worth , I used my body to feel self worth. To now I am a single mom of 2 beautiful girls, whom I am teaching to respect themselves and others. I have a steady full time job and 2 part time one, and am going to school. I am not back on the dating scene yet because I haven't found anyone good enough for myself or my girls.. I think that is a pretty big leap from where I started. And I think I just want recognition for what I have gone through but since accomplished. My family is pretty hard on some of the choices I have made but maybe if they saw the whole picture it might be different. Basically I need reassurance that I am doing well that I am somebody.