You said, "i just need someone to take care of me."

I have been saying that for 24 years, but here I am alone and lonely.
I know what is behind those words of yours...I am sorry you have to be there too!

I do hope you have a therapist to help you get through.

I know what it is like to raise a child who is also mental not well. Mine was angry to the point of violence daily. And since I was the safe one who never deserted him, he took 90% of his anger out on me. I can remember freezing in my chair waiting for the blow to hit me...gratefully he never actually hit me.