I am having a really hard time lately. I look in the mirror and feel so bad. I look at old photos and cry. I just turned 48 this past week. My weight is out of control. I am really short and weigh about 180. I am so disgusted. I just want to run and hide. nowhere to run though I thought at first it was midlife but it isn't. That is the hardest thing to admit. I have a real problem with the weight. Tried diets but I was on the road so that was really hard to do. I can't do this alone anymore