Thank you P7.
You know, we all do things that we know isn't such a good idea, but I'm glad that you're safe now and know that it wasn't a good idea. But we all do this, you can't let yourself keep beating you up. Take care of you.. You deserve better than what you had back then and I understand how hard it is now, trying to work through it.
I care, a lot of people here care, otherwise we wouldn't reply to your posts! You're a very valued person here at PC. Someone once told me that recovery is like waking up from a nightmare and walking into a dream. Hold onto that

Be kind to you today. You're a wonderful person and so deserve wonderful things