its ok - no need for reply-
this was before i caved in and took the seroquel finally last night- "I" did not "mean" to bring back this thread (yet I also did so part of me meant it)
some things just require compromise and i know i need to take meds to keep stable-
I did not want to become "dull" if i took them but its a compromise with the illness- hopefully meds makes the brain run smooth enough and still allows for creativity and mental energy. . .either way i cant just let myself crash and burn by refusing to see that its necessary to be "on" medication to have any sort of functional life. thanks. . .