I have told my T of my fantasy conversations. Not the content but that I have them. She wants me to talk about the content but I don't.
We have talked about "preparing" as if there is a right way to talk in therapy. T would rather I not add that stress onto myself and just come in and talk about whatever comes to mind, as it comes to mind, and how it comes to mind at that moment.

My fantasizing is about that I idealize people, and especially T. As she becomes more 'real' to me and I become more comfortable with her--trust and comfort don't seem to come at the same time for me--I fantasize less (sometimes I feel sad about that) and I'm able to talk more freely in therapy. But I also feel better because I don't have to deal with the disappointments and disconnects and all the things that get stirred up when the reality didn't match my fantasizing.

I wish I could tell her more about the fantasizing but I can't.