Thread: Shouldn't I want to stop?
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Old Jul 04, 2009, 03:29 PM
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Originally Posted by IndieSoul View Post
But the thing is, for some strange reason, part of me doesn't want to stop. Part of me doesn't even want to get better. I don't know why. It's like a strange sense of thrill and relaxation when I do it. I miss it already... I know I've posted a similar thread before, so just ignore this one if you want to.


It's ok, hurting youself can become very addicting. The feeling of the rush and relief after doing it is causing you to not want to get better because it is your comfort to help relieve your external issues that are hurting your emotional side. When you experience too much external emotional things for you to handle, it creates that "strange sense of thrill and relaxation" because that is what soothes you. the best thing to do is to be honest with your therapist so that you can work together to come up with a plan that will be the most helpful for your individual needs.
PM me anytime, I'm always open to chat and support and please try to stay safe.
I really care about you, take it easy and if it helps, try to talk things out
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Thanks for this!
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